Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Mirror Mirror On the Wall..

When it comes to appearances I would say that I'm a pretty laid back person. Most days you can find me in sweats or pajamas a regular t-shirt and in infamous green hoodie that I got 3 years ago from church. Pretty basic. My hair on a "good" day will just be down and straightened and a slight touch of make up  that practically rubs off by the time I'm finished putting it on. I'm not what people would call high maintenance type of girl.

BUT like any girl I have a huge problem with worrying about my appearance. In fact though I don't show it but 70% of my day goes into worry about what I look like. Fixing my clothes so I don't look like a weirdo, trying to straighten that last bit of hair and wondering to myself why I don't look like every other girl I see. And don't EVEN get me started about my weight. That topic could fill WAY too many blog posts and is not the point that I'm trying to get at.

Today something traumatic happened. And yes I meant to use the word traumatic. On my second time EVER to get my eyebrows waxed.. yes I succumbed to peer pressure and got them done.. the lady and I had a HUGE miscommunication.. suffice to say my eyebrows are.. well. HORRIBLE! I look like I got in a fight with with some buzz cutters and I lost. They're practically GONE. In my words to my mother they look like and upside down hockey stick turned sideways.. yes that bad. If anyone hasn't seen my normal eyebrows I'd say that they would match me. Normal not a lot of work goes into it but it looks fine.

Well after the many phone calls of hysterics and crying and eating of cookies, I totally needed chocolate at that point (Thanks Beth), I tried to think of how God could use this situation for the better. God loves wacked up eyebrow people too right?? And I realized I could learn a couple of things out of this situation.

I defiantly no longer need to check the mirror every time I walk by one.. of any reflective surface for that matter. Which practically frees up 70% of my brain to think/worry about something else.

I could learn to be not as self conscious and in return when I meet other eyebrow victims to be more sympathetic. Actually in any situation not to judge others by just appearances alone. I don't want people to think I'm weird without getting to know me first.. they get to think that afterwards.

Lastly I'd say that I realized that God loves me no matter what I look like. Eyebrows perfect or not. And even though most people wouldn't take comfort in that, I do. I don't have to worry about God making fun of my mangled eyebrows or thinking I'm weird. He just loves me. And that makes me feel 100 times better than any cookie could.

Well theres my traumatic story of the day.. so maybe next time you see me.. PLEASE don't comment on my eyebrows. I already know. Trust me.

With my eyebrows how they are now.. I won't be touching these for months. 

 “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!" Luke 12: 27-28

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Thinking forward

Trying to write a blog is much harder than it appears. For one thing: what in the world am I going to blog about?? I feel like people have these amazing lives and adventures and these awesome pictures and me.. well i have nothing. I pretty much stay in Tyler during the week. Go to school. Hang out with my one friend Beth (thank the LORD I have her) and then when my brother takes pity on me he'll invite me over. On occasion I get to hang out with my Uncle Andrew and his family which is a huge excitement when that happens but really my life at this point is pretty boring.

It seems that at this point in my life everything of importance is still somehow in the future. Like an unreachable goal that just taunts me while I sit here being BORED. If you haven't caught on to this theme I'm completely bored out of my mind here. WHICH could be the reason for the melancholy mood of this blog. But we all have our days right?

But this is why I look to the future. It seems like I have so many BIG changes coming up that maybe when looking back I'll be glad for this time of boredom.. or I guess "relaxation".

For one thing I "officially" start my pre-nursing classes this next semester.. true its only 2 classes and one is online BUT still. I'm officially legit.

I guess sooner than that I get to go back to Zephyr for the WINTER RETREAT!! Where we all get to hang out with some of the most "coolest" people ever! AND we get to dress up as mythical things for our Mythical Christmas Party. Pretty Much the highlight of my break! (besides Christmas of course)

Probably the BIGGEST change is that Jacob will be moving from Corpus all the way UP to east texas to work at Sky Ranch in Van! I think I'm past the point of being excited now to just freaking out! We are actually going to "date" in the same area.. a REAL relationship of seeing each other more than once a month.. slightly terrifying. BUT extremely thankful that God has let things work out as they have.

So I guess in a way this time of peace, relaxation, and frankly boredom is welcome. I'm going to have plenty of time to freak out and worry next year. And maybe by then I'll have more interesting things to post on my blog.. well.. maybe.

 - Rachel Marie

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Christmas Greetings

Believe it or not it is now officially December 1st 2010 and I for one am totally FREAKING OUT! Where did the whole year go too? What happened to summer and being tan?? My computer says that its 48 degrees outside, my skin is translucent and somehow I've gained 5 pounds from Thanksgiving food. So I guess I can be "thankful" that I now have some extra fluff weight to keep me warm all winter? Maybe I should be a chipmunk and start collecting nuts.

Well wether I like it or not December is in fact here and its getting closer and closer to CHRISTMAS which means MORE food and MORE spending. BUT in one more attempt at being thankful I'll go through the year and list some things I'm extremely thankful for..

I'm thankful for:

Getting to live with Elizabeth, Rhonda, and the cat Reggie in College Station for a semester, it was WAY too much fun.

Finally getting along with my sister Kathryn.. I guess I finally had to move out for us to get along!!

Getting to hang out with these beautiful ladies at Camp Zephyr this past summer!! And is STILL thankful that we all still keep in touch! 

Getting to take crazy beach trips with Summers and Bekka!! Love those girls <3 (that is when they're not taking pictures of me sleeping.. erg) 

AND I'm thankful for transferring to UT Tyler so I could be nearer to this crazy bunch of relatives!

So there is is for my first blog post.. I hope i didn't COMPLETELY waste you time :) I'll try to update this weekly.. thats a goal not a plan :)